Ever wonder if God was there? Or if he cared? Or maybe you messed up with this whole Christian thing?
That he gave you a heart for good...but then bound your hands. Or a time when he answered a small little day-to-day kind of prayer - took care of something that was nothing really...but did it in a big way, astounding way. Yeah...it was cool.
Then something big comes...something really worthy of His intervention...but nothing. Thats ok..not yet, his timing. Wait. Wait. Trust.
Still waiting? Yeah, me too.
Oh - and while you wait you see people (friendly friends) drop off like rain. You find yourself alone...staring at the impossible...the impossible he is famous for making sooooooo possible. Alone. Stupid.
Maybe you are suppose to learn something. So many are sure of it, maybe they are right? But then...when you think, they are as stupid as you. You just have the view... the one you get at the end of the rope. Only room for one there. One at a time I guess.
Look up that rope and you will see where you have been...all the kind folks gripping the rope with one hand and clinching onto their latest salvation in the other hand. Some holding a good sermon, a cool tune, vacation plans, a beer, a good deed, volumes of Calvin, ... each item from you view though... looks like a handful of crap.
One orphan girl pinned in by demons. Come on! Really...how hard is that??
